Home Coming

Its my seventh day at home today. YES !! i am on a vacation.

HOME... where i have the luxury of lying around whole day without doing anything....Eat the home cooked food that i always desired...Watch TV whole day without being disturbed....Where there are no client calls to attend...Where i don't have to give the status of work every 2 hrs....Where i can do any stupid act and still get away without being laughed at....Where i don't have to bother about my lunch and dinner... Yeah i am at HOME !!

Having spent almost 3 years outside of my home for earning a fat salary ( why do i have to lie ?? ) every home trip i have made has been special for me. No specific reasons ( should there be one ??) but just that i am coming back to the place where i have spent 22 important years of my life. The excitement of seeing my family, the oppurtunity to spend time with my cousins, the feeling of love,safety,care. All this and hundred other things make me run home as many times as i can.

But just wondering about how things have changed over time i felt that some things are missing...

Everyone here is busy with their own lives and daily chores. In fact it becomes difficult for me to get a time when all my friends are free to meet me at one place together. So i normally end up meeting them at different times at different places. The amazing fact is that it is only when i go to my hometown that some of my friends make a plan to meet. They hardly get time to meet each other even though they are staying in the same city. Just an instance of how much life and people have changed.

I believe that if you try to make time to spend with you dear once no matter how busy you are, you will make it. One of my friend said it rightly ‘ In your death bed you will not remember how much time you spent in office but you will regret how less time you spent with your friends & family’. May be it’s a wake up call for all of us.

Things with my family also look different. They have got used to living without me. They know that i have left for good and may or may not return in future ( career matters a lot). My mom takes leave from office as long as i am here and she makes it a point that i get to eat all my favorite food before its time to go back. She even takes care of my shopping and packs up home cooked ladoos for my friends back (my second) home.My dad makes sure that atleast once the whole family goes out for dinner whenever i'm home.My brother hands over the keys of the bike to me and travels by bus. All the relatives come over to visit us. Everyone tries to spend as much time as possible with me until it is time for me to go back.

It all is great but i sometimes get a feeling that it is a ritual that is being performed and things are not what they used to be. It feels bad when you work hard and stay away from your dear ones thinking that you are working for making their life better and then you find out that they don't need you any more...

May be i am over reacting and things are not that bad. May be its just that this visit has been at a wrong time. May be i am just bored, stupid , dumb...May be i am not able to see the love behind the faces any more.. May be things will be better when i come next...

Chalo itz time for me to pack my bags.I have to go back to the place of my Karma tomorrow...meanwhile i also have to answer my Mom's question 'Ab next time kab aayega ??'